Starting is HARD

It's something everyone can relate to.  Starting anything is hard, and when you don't know what you are doing or how to do it, it's worse.  You feel the need for a plan of attack, some idea of what you should be doing. You want to know so many things at once that it's hard to get started.

When you get overwhelmed, it's easy to freeze.  It's not your fault, there's just such a gap between you and the thing that it's understandably that you'd want to not start.  It's worse when it's a big thing, an important thing.  

Small things, fun things, you'll do just for the fun of it.  It doesn't matter if you don't know what you are doing, or even if you have the right materials.  You just jump in head first and go!

I do that all the time.  Anything big and important is so overwhelming I can't make any headway.  I get panicked and freeze.  I stop before I begin so I can't fail.  But something small?

One day, I decided to try macrame.  It was on a whim.  I have a bunch of crochet yarn about and I cut a bamboo stake from my garden to size.  I found a YouTube tutorial and went for it!  After I finished the tutorial, I pushed on, trying out a few different things I made up as I went.

I knocked out a tiny wall hanging in an hour or so and, even though the tension is all over the place and the yarn was definitely the wrong type of yarn, I had fun. Did I like it enough to try again with the proper materials?  I don't know, but at least I know how it works now and my next try will be better.

Trying knocked one thing off of my to try list and I'm glad I did it.

I've been trying to start a blog for more than a year.  I've thought about topics and audience and brainstormed posts. I've even written a few posts.  I even paid for hosting in hopes that the expenditure would push me to do it!  But I never had the nerve or the commitment or the confidence to follow through and go for it.

So, I decided that enough was enough.  I'm going for it.  I'm writing one post a day for the next couple of weeks.  Raw.  On whatever I'm thinking about at the time.  I'm not thinking about editing or how to write a title or SEO or any of that shit.  I'm just going to rant about whatever I feel like ranting about and, eventually, I'll figure out if this is actually for me and if I actually have anything worth saying.

Starting is hard.  But, approaching things with the intention to play makes it a bit easier.

Bye <3